can one suffocate by emotions?

...i was wondering? Can you drown in being loved to much? Can you stop breathing by guilt?
how to sort feelings, how to get ur mind straight...my brains seems so screewed at the moment, i couldn´t tell who i really am...you get so lost in this huge metropole. I just feel like screaming of my head WHO THE FUCK AM I? WHATS ME? WHATS MY ARTS? WHATS MY REAL EMOTIONS? i have to strip it down to something. It´s there under all these layers of pretentious, fucked up, false bullshit. I can feel my self rising... my arts, my abilities, there are not gone, are they?
who the fuck knows. I don´t.